Endings

"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next." ~Gilda Radner

Tomorrow is my last day at my current job. Working in ministry is different than other jobs. The only way I could find to change jobs and still stay "in my field" is to get a job at a different church and leave mine. Which means-in a lot of ways-leaving many people that I love. I'm not moving, but I'm enough of a realist to know that there are people who I will loose touch with. The leaving is difficult and bittersweet and is for a lot of people a "poem that doesn't rhyme". Through this process I've been reminded over and over that God is the only one that knows our thoughts and motives. I've learned that all you can do is try, with God's help, to live your life with integrity, grace, and love with God's help. Your friends who know and love you will love you whether or not they understand the whole story.

I start my new job next Tuesday. Last month when I was on a trip with my husband I bought a magnet to put in my office. It says, "Faith is jumping and believing that you will either land on solid ground or that you'll be given wings to fly." I don't know exactly what is going to happen next, but I'm going to do my best to live my story trusting the One who does.